No Connection

I went into the store that I had frequented many times before and saw for the first time a woman whose energy captured my attention. I had no idea who she was, nor what her story was in any way, but my immediate feeling was that I wanted to spoon her, draw her up close to me and whisper in her ear. Her salt and pepper hair was closely cropped and I wanted very badly to hold her head in my hands.

I left the store. I went back in the store.

The next time I saw her I discussed my favorite organic raw food bar since I happened to be buying a box from her. Her eyes glowed brilliantly at me as she listened. Yes, she listened. She was interested in what I was saying. I would later find out that she bought a box of them herself and found that she too liked them though preferred a dryer variety than the oily one that was my favorite.

I left the store.

I later ran into her with a friend. They were out dancing together. I introduced myself to her and said, "don't I know you from somewhere?" I remembered her face and her body and her energy but out of context I could not remember the store. She told me that her name was Clare and she told me that I might know her from where she worked.

I went back in the store.

I gave her my card. I told her that I would be going out the next night and that if she would like to hang out with me to give me a call. She did call me and we danced a little that night, we shared a few words - she said, "I like movies." I watched her often, drinking her in while her back was turned. Her legs and ass were too much. I wanted her ass in the bend of my lap. I was friendly but distant not wanting to give away my whole hand. Clare told me later that she thought I was interested in her friend Lydia.

The next day we hung out after the parade. We sat together for a few hours drinking tea and discovering all the things that we had in common. Cities, food, lifestyles, what an incredible list and to listen to her tell it was excruciating she was just so fascinating and present. She walked me through a land that I had left and re-introduced me to everything. She uncovered for me things that I had never seen though I thought I had been there before. When we finished I felt as though I had been on a long pleasant journey.

I left the store. I went back in the store. I left the store and went back several more times.